It's dissappOinting...

sOme frds whom i once treated as buddies.. but who am i now? jus a normal frd to talk craps w/ when bored... but nt a frd who can talk/chat with at a deeper level.. Yes, everyone hv inner thoughts tt r always kept w/i themselves.. Frds dun hv to tell each other everything.. just basic trust..& not drawing a clear line to differentiate the various levels of frds & what shd say n what shd not to at each level. Nah i can't be bothered le.... Jus feeling silly today.. Perhaps i'm nt a gd frd afterall... or maybe pple dun think tt i'm someone they can confide...even aft so lOng..

Anyway, to me, frds r someone whom we can trust. Don't hv to chat on phone every week, don't hv to see other every now n then... But in fact, they'll remain in ur heart, remain part of u & ur life always... Everyone may be busy w/ their own lifes but ultimately get tog at a pt of time...& tt qlty of friendship has not changed or i shd say worsen.

It's funny how simple things can be.. True frds r someone tt u'll think of when u saw a meaningful sms, when u saw a nice movie showing, when u thought of doing sth fun, when u need a listening ear/ some suggestions/ truthful opinions or can even be as simple as telling interesting stuffs abt ur life... & of course the other way round also applies.. Offering to lend a helping hand -sometimes even when not being asked to (ha but dun b too "kaypo" la & oso keep within ur limits), lend a listening ear (even if u urself needed one as well)... bla bla..... Most of the times, jus hv to feel w/ our heart.....

Hmm generally 'm quite sensitive to the feelings of pple ard me... At times, i noe what pple 're thinking even w/o telling.. No la, i'm nt a mind reader, jus a feeling fr the heart.. i can sense real joy but on d other hand can also 'gan3 shou4 dao4' sorrows.... & Sometimes I feel unhappy coz though i noe my love ones r sad, i noe tt i can't do anyth to make them feel better.... The feeling is helpless.......

I lOve U, dats wat i wanna say to aLL my trUe frieNds oUt there! Though not all may see this, but hope everyone of u can feel this love.. even if i don't say out loud, even if i don't type this out, even when I'm not around... (noe 'll nt be an impt person in the eyes of many but can say for sure tt each & everyone of u is impt to me...)

XiaO zHi yiNg~

hee... jus install it & been addicted to it already!! I can play whole of 'An1 Jing4' w/o looking le... & now keep playing 'Chi1 Xin1 Jue2 Dui4'.. Err still mus look at the notes la.. this one is harder..

Talk more abt it later..

my 'baO bEi'

yeS my bao bei's getting old... 4 yrs+.. It went thru' a couple of "operations"... Actually, had to go thru' a few more "organ transplants" but i'm sorry tt i can't afford to do so. Recently, it got a "stroke"! & Jus now it went into a "comma" againz.. I mus really apologised tt at times i had to "smack" u to keep u "awake"...

Sometimes the keypad won't work, making it difficult 4me 2type sms... Sometimes, i simply couldn't on it... & Many a times, i couldn't hear clearly in a conversation.. That's y now i jus choose to keep it off/ let it "rest".. Ah some time ago, Xt gave me a Nokia 3310.. now oso a bit not so 'ting1 hua4', sometimes can't on it as well.. ;P

Recently, someone passed me a Samsung hp... w/o a charger.. ha... tt's y cant use it now.. Occasionally, jus use it to read a Chinese sms~

COnfession..

Ft, i promised to help ya get LH's album autog-ed.. but tt day when i reached, it was already sold out.. I noe u really wanted his sig-n-t so i've got one fr d net 4U.. Though slightly more ex, it's sth different fr wat u already hv.. still X^Z^D^R^Y but it's a tw presale item which comes w/ 'xie3 zhen1' & vcd... hope u'll like this even more.. (yea i'll mail it to u asap) ;D Jiayou for ur honours thesis & hope to cya back in Sg sooNz.......

I like this oNe!

"LOve is not about fiNding the perfecT person.. but finding the iMperfect person perfecT.."

(taken from: "Logan's" msn nick~)

UpdaTes..

["my 3000-trOuble-roOts"]
Been a while since i last keep this blog up-to-date.. So, think start fr the earliest events ba.. I've sliced my hair into a shorter length... tt was when i put my msn nick as 'duan fa' lyrics (nt sure y but a few frds were quite excited, msg me "i noe i noe... it was Gigi's songs..") Haa k anyway, I din cut it v short coz dun quite like short hair.. I've waited almost 18 yrs of my life to keep long hair.. aft jc where we no longer hv to abide the sch rules this & that bla bla...


[zOo trip]
Last wkend, went to the zoo w/ one of China frds & my buddy.. This "date" has been delayed for nearly a yr so i guess i gota go no matter watz... At first i though my tt frd has went back China coz she told me her work contract ends Dec 2004 & she's nt gg to renew it.. I've been tryin' to contact her thru sms but failed.. 'Yuan2 lai2' she changed her hp no when her Starhub contract ends! (ha.. aiyo, nv tell me earlier...)

K, so tt day me n my buddy meet up to take mrt tog.. err dunno how long it takes to go there initially. Thought it's gonna take us at least 1hr 30 mins (bus n mrt) & we hv only slightly >1 hr... so i sms my China frd we'll b late.. Guess wat, in d end we reach Marsiling earlier than expected, could b on time actually.. Upon reaching, i found out tt there was no bus tt day!! So we decided to take a cab down since it wasn't far fr M mrt.. but b4 tt, my bud says she's hungry, wanna buy some food.. So in d end we were 20mins late when we reached there... & guess wat? when I call my frd, she said she'd already left, & reaching AMK interchange!!? Huh? a big shock 2me! Err she said sth like, "i thought u weren't coming so i left." I said, "thought i already sms ya i'll b late?" She replied, "Yea i saw ur sms but i cant get thru ur hp to ask u wat time u'll reach.. & i though u weren't be coming.." I'm stunned by her words.. But jus 2 ensure, there weren't any unhappiness or wat in this la.. jus many qn marks in my head.. from zoo to AMK takes >30 mins (30 stops in btw).. & we're late by 20mins... So, it means even b4 the agreed time, my frd has went off... (scratch scartch*) Till now i still cant understand the logic behind.. but one thing i get it is tt my frd thinks tt "putting pigeon" is a common thingy.. haaa...

So, we 2 waited 4 my China frd & her company to take bus back... & we waited sth like 45mins.... It was already aftn... sun was hot da da... My China frd was so thoughtful, bought us ea a bottle of water (though i'd prepared my share in advance but i still appreciate her kind gesture).. Yea, then the rest of the zoo touring was as normal... But a bit 'yi2 han4' coz i din managed to see the one I most desired to see.. the "Huge Elephants".. There was only 3 or 4 pink elephant(quite small to me), nt those "gigantic" ones--> African elephants i think. & oso the Giant Tortise due to time constraint.

Hee I liked the white tigers.. though i yearn to carry & hug it's young more.. One of my big wish la! (k anyway din even see any cubs while i was there.. thought heard fr papers the white tigers do give birth to "little tigers" recently / In BKK i think they're "open-for-touch")... How i wished.. how i wished....

Oh yea yea I LUV the pony.. I 'sayang' it for very long... patted it's face too ;P sO cute... sO 'wen1 xun4'~ tame.. sO adOrable!! I looked deeply into it's eyes.. & it seems to look back into my eyes too... ;P The feeling is grReat!.. How i wished..(again!) I can own it/ see it everyday! >_<


[gReat baRgains]
YoOhu!! I've bought some cds few days ago.. Initial intention was only to walk ard w/ mum...but ends up w/ many 'shou huo'... One of which is Trademark's "Only Love" album.. That time when Jacky Cheung released his "dang1 wo3 xiang3 qi3 ni3" album, I've noticed & liked tt song & this Eng vers as well.. There were quite a lotsa adverts on TV on dis Eng album.. but well, cant afford to buy an album jus b'coz of ONE song.. & nOw....... I got an autographed vers of tt for 2bucks. Yes SGD$2!! Truely feel tt it was fated to be mine ;P ...Anoth one was William So's autogr cd + His anoth album which has got the song "bu4 xiang3 shui4"--> Dong Ge 'fan1 chang4' tt song b4... Plus some other great grabs of original HK-vers music albums... So happy tt day!! Even let me "bumped" into a pants, last piece & a "no trying" item.. Bought it anyway & it fits perfectly! Er erm, n da... bought a top as well, which i aimed 4 a wk le, last piece of tt size... Heh, guess it was jus my day!!~ (>_^ winks*)

Hey why u all beat him up?

Poor Jacky, got beaten up so badly.... Hope he'll be ok.. Esp that eye.. hope nth goes wrong..

Xian Ge JiayOu!!!
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Though many pple think tt he's jus a crappy person, at times 'kou3 hua1 hua1' too... but nevertheless he's still my fav host. I feel tt many things they say on tv is jus to create effects & make ppl laugh.. I forgot how many times he'd bring joy to mE... even when I'm v sad.... I can still managed to laugh at his jokes... forgetting the unhappy stuffs for a moment or two.. & When I'm in normal mood, his words can make me laugh till I roll on the floor ;D (ha k, jus a "bi3 yu4", slightly exaggerating la.. but I nv get bored w/ his "style" lo)... I really think comedy actors & those in this line r great! Their tasks r not as easy as it seems.. & ppl jus nv geta see their real self behind the screen.. even if they're sad or troubled, they still must put on a happy face to "do their job" of bringing joy to the mass audience.... Another e.g is one of my fav actor Stephen Chow... backstage staffs said tt he was so stressed out while filming "Gong1 Fu1"...& even resort to drugs bla bla.... One can nv fully 'gan3 shou4 dao4' the 'xin1 suan1' of every successful performance unless they experience it themselves..

痴心絕對

想用一杯Latte把妳灌醉　好讓妳能多愛我一點
暗戀的滋味　妳不懂這種感覺　早有人陪的妳永遠不會

看見妳和他在我面前　證明我的愛只是愚昧　
妳不懂我的那些憔悴　是妳永遠不曾過的體會

為妳付出那種傷心妳永遠不了解　我又何苦勉強自己愛上妳的一切　
妳又狠狠逼退我的防備　靜靜關上門來默數我的淚

明知道讓妳離開他的世界不可能會　我還傻傻等到奇蹟出現的那一天　
直到那一天妳會發現　真正愛妳的人獨自守著傷悲

曾經我以為我自己會後悔　不想愛的太多痴心絕對
為妳落第一滴淚　為妳做任何改變　也喚不回妳對我的堅決

直到那一天　妳會發現　真正愛妳的人獨自守著傷悲 --[蔡伯南]

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Sang by: 李聖傑
I luv this song... esp aft 'qun1 xin1 zhao4 liang4' charity show where he sang 'live'.. wow power sia.. He really got 'shi2 li4'.... sO steady~

At the lifT..

aH, when i got back fr sch aft psy cls... saw my ex clsmate at my nex blk.. sending his gf home again.. heh, really happy for him.. coz the last time i bumped into them was quite some time ago.. tt means they're still tog...!! =) Last time in jc, we used to talk abt his r/s stuffs...(Yea yea, me always the love consultant! lolz*) ..& sometimes abt Xt's songs..(happened we like e same person's songs.. ha I still rmb tt he put the "Love Music" postcards in his file & carry to sch evday.. haa I don't even do tt!) Yea, I rmb him as someone quite devoted.. hard to find guys like tt nowdays... Glad tt he has finally found someone who treasure him as much.. Apart fr the past, even now, the fact tt aft so long he still bothers to send his gf to her doorsteps.. I rmb he lives in Tamp or watz, nt too nearby..

K la, anyway he jus reminds me of those buddies in jc... Those who shared ups & downs... but unfortunately we all got drifted apart aft leaving Sr.. ::>_<:: ..but still got ah lei there leh... ;P Ha...yes "ah lei" & "ah yu".. missed those times...^^

Hmm sometimes I jus feel tired being the one making d extra effort to keep in touch or hang on to a friendship.. But if u can't even be bothered, many a times tt f/s might be lost or becoming a 'hi-bye' r/s.. I don't like tt feeling... Even if we don't share the same sch or activity now, it doesn't mean the past is non-existent... Those were the happy times & precious memories tt we shall bring along w/ us even till later parts of our life...

At times, I had this feeling...(nt sure y)... feel tt there won't be much a difference w/ or w/o mE in grp outings or gatherings or whatever... Maybe even if one day I jus dissappeared into d air, nt many shall notice it within a mth or so... hA~

diFFerenCe btw a diGi & "antiQue caM"?

A world of cOlour difference......^^

A Walt Disney Prod~n

Hee went to watch "THe PaCifier".. Not bad. I would say it's a show suitable for the whole fam to watch tog. Quite funny + 'wen1 xin1'.. Ha but I'll prefer an ending where "he" became the kids' daddy... but instead, he end up w/ the kids' sch-VP... Oh yea recalling the "Panda Dance"!! Hah hah~ ;D ;D

NeW rELease* - dated 08 Apr 2005

hA my "500 yrs ago" relative's 1st album! (lolz*) k la k la... it's Sylvester's "Qi FEi" album.. I dun really like the name "sLy"... sounds really sly.. haaA... Sylvester's such a nice name..! K, craps aside... wOwz, I really luv his version of "An Jing"!!.. Esp aft hearing it first on TV, then LiVe from my window, then the more perfect vers on CD.... ;P (niCe niCe^^)

hMM wat else... err no recommendation yet for dis album.. haven listen eunf to say which r the songs I like more... but overall, my impression of it is nt bad.. jus tt his 'yao3 zi4' 's nt too clear... but compared to Mr-J it's a world of difference. (no offence leh*) It's jus ME who don't noe how to appreciate Mr-J's "te4 se4"!

Ah hah, one thingy I wanna say. I bought this album w/ imperfections. It's newly open & I found scratches on the disc! ;-/ & I saw the covers of other CDs w/ black stains on them, & coz the piCky me bought a "clean" one ^_< Wat's more? I can't find the writer of the lyrics for the first song! Hiyy guess they release this album in a haste.. Everything's nt properly done... I even found a word missing from a song, a spacing error from another while jus glancing thru'... Heh k la no big deal, I'm onLy going for the muSic aft all~

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Er erm, some updates aft a long long while.... haa keke.. I would say i luv Syl's vers of 'an1 jing4', in fact much more than jay's vers!! Then anoth song which i think's quite nice --> 'suo2 yi3' =)

updated: 29 Sep 2005

Watssup?

I wanna watch "The Pacifier"!

Starring: Vin Diesel, Lauren Graham, Brittany Snow
Directed by: Adam Shankman
Release date: 7-Apr

Vin Diesel stars as Navy SEAL Shane Wolfe who, as an elite member of the world's fiercest and most highly trained force, thought he was prepared to take on any duty no matter how perilous or impossible...until he tried baby-sitting. Assigned to protect the five out-of-control children of an assassinated scientist working on vital government secrets, Shane is suddenly faced with juggling two outrageously incompatible jobs: fighting the bad guys while keeping house. Replacing his usual arsenal of wetsuits and weapons with diapers and juice boxes, Shane not only must battle a deceptive enemy but wrangle teen rebel Zoe (Brittany Snow), sullen 14-year-old Seth (Max Theriot), 8-year-old Ninja-wanna-be Lulu (Morgan York), as well as 3 year-old Peter and baby Tyler - not to mention their off-beat Romanian Nanny (Carol Kane).

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Oh no, so many movies coming up.... Esp aft the price of movie tic shoot up!! ;-/ Nvmd, can still go Cineleisure to watch (as their prices remains).. But in general still quite ex lar, so QC, QC! "Eye 10" Teck said waste $$ so no wan watch le.. Perhaps later on if it's vcds is selling cheap then may consider buying then pass ard...(ha fully utilised*) Hmm...wonder who got "The Shutter's" vcd... many says quite scary... wanted to watch v much tt time but it jus happened tt everytime when we planned to watch, sth happens... so didn't managed to watch in the cinemas where d atmosphere's the bEsT.. hizZ....

Whenever u feel that life is meaningless, always rmb this:

絕望在前方, 希望在轉角..

Honestly Love You

Maybe I hang around here a little more than I should
We both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you that I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know
I love you, I honestly love you

You don't have to answer, I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
But this is pure and simple, and you must realise
That it's comin' from my heart and not my head
I Love You, I honestly love you

I'm not tryin' to make you feel uncomfortable
I'm not tryin' to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesn't come along everyday
And you shouldn't blow the chance when you've got the chance to say
I love you, I love you, I honestly love you

If we both were born in another place and time
This moment might be ending in a kiss
But there you are with yours, and here I am with mine
So I guess we'll just be leavin' it at this
I love you, I honestly love you
I honestly love you...... -[Written: Peter Allen/Jeff Barry]

No more April's fool joke....

There'll be no more celebrating of April's Fool Day...
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[In memory of our dearest bro~]