nOthing to U but shOcking to ME!!!

TOday received the monthy newsletter... enclosed r all mbrs' personal details.... a few hundreds contacts!!! They didn't EVER get permission from us b4 publishing!!! THis is sooooo upseting.... I'm traumatized by this nOw!!!! Aft so many days of rest, I thought I can finally start studying again.. BUT why must this happens at this time??! I hate it..... Nobody can understand my feelings now!.... Though disclosure of my personal details is a biG deaL to me but the WORSt thing is the action behind this. All those who read all my posts b4'll noe tt PRIVACY is one of the tOp priorities in my life... I feel tt there's absolutely NO RESPECT for our privacy!! Now that nOthing can be done to solve this....as what is done caN't be undone!! :::>_<:::

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P/S: tt's y i can understand how pie pie feels when ur frd gave ur number to others w/o ur permission. I would also say tt applies to me as well.... I don't like pple giving my contacts away w/o my knowledge (haa unless tt person already got the contact but lost it somehow). I'm nt v fussy but jus simply don't like tt feeling... It's like betrayal by ur frd esp when in e 1st place u don't wan to give it to some particular pple. Ha pie pie hor?

hOtiE-hOtz

Been giving my blog a long break coz 'm down w/ flu, fever, then now cough... Falling sick during "vacation" is the worst times.. Imagine hv to stay till late at nite w/ a "sicky" feeling.... awful feeling! Luckily got rid of anoth 2 "places of interest" le.. POM on thurs & HRM on fri.... That day @foodfair.... I also bought 'Macau Almond Cookies' for mum.. Hah then when i reach home i oso tried them... Though the smell of almond is so "yucks" but when i was having a bad flu, it was ok then.. (On d other hand, roasted almonds in choc din hv tt smell so was still not bad.. ;p BUt pls i still hateS almond jelly!! I still rmb once Xt bought almond flavour bubble tea into cinema & i can smell it during the whole show!! ;-\ hOrrible sMeLL!!!)

Ok so these past few days i lost most of my taste & smell ability... Food taste bland, smelly almond stuffs was not as smelly as bef... ha which was a gd thing in fact.. but today ate anoth almond cookie, think it smells more le... Wahaa so issit a gd thing? Anyway now i only had half my voice.. Yesterday it was worst, nt much strength to talk even but still went to TM's hse coz she leaving Sg tmr & prob nt coming back le.. (sob sob*) Mum ask me stay home but i say cant ley... if i dun go i noe i'll regret... coz i dunno when can i see her again. Hopefully she'll get thru' evth then hope hope she'll come back for grad ceremony nex yr la...

Haa so yest we2 (+ a few more of my yr 1 classmates) stand ard the table & "bao1 jiao3 zi".. Quite fun, & this's my 1st time making dumplings... ha i did ask them wat ingredients they put..so nex time i can make some myself le.. I'm sure i'll add some "imaginations" wan.. heh heh... see who dares to eat loh~

Oh yea one biG prob now.. i promised WL'll go P's ktv on the 18th... hopefully my voice can recover by then.... dun play play coz there was once whr it takes me mths to get back my voice totally!! I simply hate tt feeling of 'li4 bu4 cong2 xin1' (or can say simply helpless)...

BoOk FaiR~

Went World Book Fair on fri aft HRm paper... tt day dd was siCk.. yeS, but i still wanna go... juz wanna breathe some fresh air.. some more it's the 1st day... Went there alone, hoping to get some gd stuffs... but..I found much junk there... Many of the stalls seems to be clearing bks tt they're unable to sell.... I even saw some bks which were there every yr at book fair w/o fail.. Anyway i still stopped to browse a bk or two...

The moment I stepped into the hall, i was already freezing so took out my super thick coat tt i'm always wearing in sch & while in the "giant freezer"... K was much better... but aft an hr or so, it jus happens suddenly.. My whole body felt v uncomfortable.. Feeling v nausea, i quickly make payment for a bk & head str for the entrant.. I felt my forehead frozen, my limps was so weak... The feeling was so helpless, esp tt i'm alone... Had quite a difficult time struggling down to the ground level. At there i finally cant tahan... vxxxxxx... Aft tt, queue & finally managed to collapse into a cab which brought me home... Of course pains my heart for hving to pay a big 8 bucks due to additional of $2 (wkend + peak hrs charge).

^hRm^

Ah this one i mus say i did it all on my own... meaning the understanding part.. coz in fact i only went 4 a few lectures + 1 tutorial i think.. Veri "chiam" rite? but cant b helped... no mood to attend.. Ah Lei who took it b4 last yr also told me can don't go cls wan.. jus study the yellow bk can already..... Yes it's true la coz Yellow bk already got sooo many stuffs to rmb.. & was quite comprehensive... So self-study was ok.. BUT one thingy tt anyone shdn't follow my example coz i only started reading the yellow bk a few days b4 HRM paper.. Ops~ ;P

But anyway i write v little per essay only.. Ah haaa anoth bad e.g. I assume all theory subjs sure 4 essays in 3 hrs wanz so i din bother to look at HRm's format.. Then when i received the qn paper I found tt only need to do 3 qns.... even better but tt oso means ea qn hv to write more.. Like wat i say b4 i din write much coz i found tt when i start to increase my speed up to a certain level, my handwriting'll looked close to "illegible"... so i gota slow down till it looks clear enuf... In d end i end up 5 pgs ea for the 1st 2 essay & 4 pg for my 3rd essay... Pray hard examiner won't feel tt content no enuf..... >_<

nOt agAinz.. Sob....

Aft pOm paper, i went to the foodfair. A particular incident: a purchase made from "Fragrance" aka 'Xiang1 Wei4 Rou4 Gan1'.

It was a real BAd experience. I felt so badly treated.. I dun wanna go into the details but how i wished Xt's w/ me at tt time... She'll surely stand out for me... Can't be help, i'm the type who'll swallow down the words even if it already reaches the mouth.. (unless unless.. err hard to say... mayb sth like if the person's attitude is still normal/gd & there's some form of misunderstanding then i may attempt to expl in a nice manner.. but if the person is rude or wat, i've nth to say... i don't like to argue w/ ppl.. coz i noe myself too well, if i argue too much or get too agitated, my tears'll drop uncontrollably.. ha really!)

Last time @Cineleisure's Subway, Xt also help me sort out the "unfair treatment" given to me.. That feeling was good.. so 'wen1 nuan3'... having someone to stand out for u in times of need.... ;)

^pOm^

OK POM mah.... I got stuck half way when i did the last qn..... v bad coz i wasted ard 45 mins on tt then i realised i couldn't continue anymore..... so during the last 1/2 hr i change qn...... silly me so do so aft suCh a long struggle... Anyway, i changed to an "essay" type instead. Though i din study tt topic at all but i feel i can at least write sth more then then the prev one. K, din finished but anyway also dunno how to do all the parts lar...

Sth v funny.... my "sleeping ant post" rmb ya? ah, tt time when d ant chose the zzzz on my POM notes i was already thinking i must study tt seta notes.. i got a kinda strange feeling tt it might come out..... It did hor, one whole qn BUT but i forget to study!!! Urrgh!! & tt was e last qn i did lo.. Haa i think fated.. antz give me hint i oso can forget... ;D ;D

SwEEt dreAMs~

haVe u ever seen a sleeping ant? Yes i had! It slept on my notes... to be exact my POM notes. So cUte!!! Feelers on the "ground".. two front legs closer to the body & the other four legs more apart.. Veri cute, reallie! & when it sleep it doesn't goes into a deep deep sleep. It gets awake easily, then suddenly stand up, crawl ard, feelers moving on the ground as if searching for sth... Then the nex moment, asleep again! ;D

I hv to be so careful not to breadthe while staring closely at it... hee.. Never stare at an ant so long b4.. This's the 1st & only time ba.. nevertheless, found it to b so adorable.. ^_^

I never regreted always nagging mum nt to squash any ants when they crawl on us.. Yes, every life is precious!! I only learn this in the process of growing up.. i hv 2 admit tt i killed ants & mosquitoes b4 in this learning process... but may their sacrifices b worthwhile..... >_<

^^SLaP

Sometimes i hate myself for being so easily "appeased" or so called easy to "hong3".. [It's like someone gave u a slap then say sorry to u..] The hurt is already felt, couldn't pretend nth has happened bef.. Why can't pple at least try2 stop to think whr poss b4 saying/ doing sth tt's likely hurt others?

I do appreciate my western lecturers' str-fwd-ness in class but somehow, when this "val" is used in our everyday life, it sorta make things seems more unpleasant.. ;-

Hao la, stop complaining le.. Ces't La Vie~

Will he do SR or NTU proud?

Hah juz kidding only la... i'm talking abt one of "Jue Dui Superstar" contestant.. from the same college. Haa must say this first: i'm very supportive of those from same sch as me before & of course those whom i personally know... Sometimes a bit "over" supportive & may be slightly bias la.. ;D ;D

Those from my batch shd noe: JY ..jus noe from Science faculty. He's one of our sch's best singer during that 2years. Can't forget those good singers coz our CCS's the organisor of every year's karaoke competition. JY's the champion of solo for the first yr & duet champion for the 2nd yr tog w/ Shuang Shuang. Err don't quite rmb le, only recalled that 1st yr finals he sang Jacky Cheung's 'san1 tian1 liang3 ye4' & 2nd yr finals he & Shuang Shuang sang 'ai4 he2 cheng2 nuo4'. Heard they sang 'ni3 zui4 zhen1 gui4' during the semi-finals but missed it coz i went to see X-t heh heh... But i can say that the two of them r real good. Wonder if Shuang Shuang also participate in this JDSS..

Anyway i already got a shock during the 1st time i heard JY sing. Haaaa tt was 1st session of CCS i think, then everyone was suppose to stand in front of lecture hall & sing a song. I only rmb one of the songs he sang was 'ai4 ni3 duo2 ni3' ..hmm doesn't sound like X-t but i'm shock by his singing technique. Later then heard ppl say tt he learned singing since young.. participated in the "er tong ka-la-ok"/ PSC Children's Karaoke Comp bef.. & Recently, PSC adult karaoke comp & got 1st. Wuo... (Claps*)

K la i must say tt time i was a "suaku", din heard as many gd "commoner"-singers as now, tts y got a deeper impression of him. But anyway he's from our sch wan & "quite power" so'll still wished tt he can get into the finals of this comp. Frankly speaking, hear him sing live is much nicer than from tv (ha i also don't understand why). Hiy, who else i know participate in this comp??! Kk we shall see from 8th June onwards, on Ch U.....

p/s: heh actually CCS supposed got a lotsa chances to "sing karaoke" in front of everyone wanz but lucky me able to escape then.. in tt 2yrs ley, lucky eh? ;P & lucky i din manz.. coz now already sing so terribly, then was much worst!!! haa but we did perform once for our seniors la, jus tt it was a grp singing item so still alright ;P

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updated (290505): no, he didn't get into the final 24... nvmd talents'll nv go wasted..

SpenDing agaiNz

In such gd mood aft getting rid of anoth paper, met a frd who brought me to a cd shop.. In d end, i bought Zhang Dong Liang's cd (@$4.00)& Jolin's vcd (@$3.90).. okie tts only less than 10bucks... But but on the same day my frd found me a Youpeng's CD...(hee so happie!!) BUT tts the one which cause me to bleed.... his old album.. i've been trying 2 collect all his cds... now left only (*这般发生zhe ban fa sheng, *擦肩而过cha jian er guo, 最爱zui ai, 了解liao jie)... i saw a 2nd hand of 'liao jie' selling online for S$12 which i may consider buying later. ;P

And as for Xiao Hu Dui's CDs.. urrgh... no LuCk! I onLy managed to get more of the later released 5 of them so far.... Aiy my frd help a frd to sell a few of XHD's cd forget to ask me if i wan....."dui dui dui"!!! Saw some of those which i don't have selling online at TW but hor...hiy don't think abt it now. Hah hah mayb nex time when I started working may consider saving for them one by one lar...... (Another one of my dreamz~)

p/s: Heh anyone who hv Alec's "这般发生" & "擦肩而过" or any Xiao Hu Dui cds & willing to sell (@ a reasonable price) must tell me hoR!! ;D

deAR blOg,

Last wkend was a bad one.. no mood to study at aLL... (bad-badz*) Aft fri's A&F, till the night b4 Soci paper then got really started to 'bei4 shu1'.. had a hard time memorising till 4am the nex day & left me w/ less than 3 hrs of zZz....

but noW, finaLLy i can put aside Marx, Weber, Parsons, Shorter, Anderson, Laslett, Feminists, Downs, Albrow, Michels, Paul Winkler, Burns & Stalker, Joan Woodward, Charles Perrow, Contingency Theories, Population Ecology, Mead, Bilton, Goffman, Murdock, Stella Quah, Braverman, Litwak, Young & Wilmott, Fletcher, Goode, Ann Oakley, Beethan, Marshall, Blau..... bla bla bla... (sO relax*)

SmiLing whole day since i left the "giant freezer"... ^_^

>feeLing ugLy<

hAd this feeling againz.. it's stronger today... perhaps aft i've seen XxX ba.... i haTe this miserable feeling...... but it's there all the time... juz a matter of when it "appears"~

"RevenGe"!!

yohU.. juz finished 6 hrs of TV-marathon... hah only 3 days din watch TV (having 2 staying stay in freezer during my TV time) & i ended up w/ so much to "clear"!! heee...k la finally finish clearing.. thenz yesterday oso online 'bao4 chou2' le.. Now sorta 'fa1 xie4 wan2 bi4'! (relaXz*)

Forgot to mention yest.. SK jus cut his hair, i think this new hair style is quite nice...& suits him manz.. a bit like jap style.. hah head oso looks smaller... Hah, every time i see him he seems 2 improve in his dress style.. ;P Keep it upz! Hope u can let go of da past soonz & find ur dream gal!!! (Jiayou!^)

Hmm hair style can really make such a big difference in a person looks sia... no wonder all those "Stars" hv to style here & there b4 ea appearance & when see them "on-da-road", they looked different.. not as glamorous (ops*)...

Heh heh but anyway i still like Tomohisa's hair style mOst** Whether dyed or not, it's ever so 'shun4 yan3' >_^

RUn DD rUn

Heh heh on the way back fr "freezer", bought 'pi2 dan4 zhou1', durian puffs & etc back 2makan... then on a small stretch along the condo nex to it, i bumped into 2 frds, both fr my class in Sr.. v v 'qiao3' coz i bumped into them seperately... one aft anoth w/i seconds! & the two of them r quite gd frds last time (fr wat i rmb) but they didnt realise tt ea other is walking along the same stretch.. ha!

Know wat, i feel tt exam time 4us is like reunion time... but i would call it "inappropriate reunion time".. coz' of the atmosphere, time (rushing here & there)... almost no chance to hv a few words.. I saw Mik yest & today but no time call him... haa call oso say hi & bye (nvmd lar).... Ah I saw Jas aft A&F paper.. she rebonded her hair, v nice! & dats oso quite rush coz we heading towards diff directions.. Then bumped into SK, he working at one of the "freezers" again.. ha wonder if EV oso working there this time rnd. Veri funny, coz' last time i saw EV carrying her sling bag ard while working... at 1st i thought she jus drop by to help out 4 fun..... K la, i can't wait to end my "vacation" & go eat supper w/ u all..... That day will cOme!!!

Haha jus now chat w/ Gir on msn.. he said he saw my during MSM... i say wah din call me... somemore jus 3 rows away onli.. Guess wat he say?- i "run off" v fast aft 'san4 chang3' /dismissal....(What he meant was i din hang ard, pack up & went off str.) My reply was (deliberately 2make it ironic), "Yea lo, "running off" to the washroom mah!".... (lolz*)

tiCk-tock... tick-tOck.....

tOday's A&F.. wOrst! nO time to finish!! I did a total of 2 whole qns + 1/2 a "anyhow-do-qn"... (out of 4) ;-/ wOnder wats the outcome.. Gir said he only did 1+ qns.. No, not any consolation at all coz doesnt mean tt if others did lesser than me i'll b happier.. In fact our case is also totally diff coz he got one more yr to go.... can retake.... & me? can't of course. >_< "Die die" mus paSS A&F this time!...

Ok, mus admit aft so long... first time zzz only ~5hrs which was last nite.. but luckily today dun feel tired while writing in tt "giant freezer"... hah mayb due 2 e fact tt e atmosphere is too tense.. seems like fighting 4time... ;P i still can rmb wat Alan said last yr... A&F paper is like a battle.. u can NEVER finish all 4 qns.. if u do, u mus hv left out sth..(wahaa) But then mine is way below 4 qn or even 3 1/2... Do too slow le lar..('m sure got many others who can managed 2 finish all 4 or at least attempted them) but again i'm afraid 2make careless mistakes while adding/subtracting... esp when pressing the calculator.. i'm real gd at pressing wrong wan lehz....(pie pie shd noe >_^)

p/s: Pie Pie jiayou 4 ur OT hor, dun give up! & I'll oso try my best 4my 3X Soci!!! ;D ;D cya~

whR's the "baNging-heAd" waLL?

hiY... few days has passed & w/ this short period, certain things tt i dreaded had "inevitably" happened... Made 2 biG stUpiD, siLLy, biG-heAd mistake in my MSM paper.. onE of it make me "jump", "scratch", "hit" like crazy when i gOt home..... almost can go & know against the wall le! Thought it's the easiest subj among my others....but who knows? this yr's paper XXX... nth to say.... jus blame myself 4 nt studying everything single thing including the "never-a-question" on Queuing-Theory.. + this yr no more direct qns anymore.. how i envy my frds, fr prev batch.. last yr qns much better than ours! Apart fr the difficult qns, i even made silly mistakes on the simple parts... Ahh tt feeling is like hard to describe... Those who experienced this will know!

shhh....

..appetite's getting better & better these days... esp when it gets nearer to my "long vacation"? hmm shockingly, in a meal yesterday(lasted ard 3+hr), dd ate 6 slices of bread, 1 mug of cereal, 2 roti-prata, a small bowl of laksa, some biscuits & coz oso my evday routine ~1 bar of choco!!! wahaaA i think if Mab see this she'll faint... ah + roughly anoth 4 glasses of water in btw.... OpsS! did i hv some form of "ci4 ji1" or wat? nonO.. but guess dis one can b anoth of dd's record liaoz... my last record is few yrs back, shared a laRge stuff-crust pizza w/ Yen & we managed to finish half each..coz we don't wanna waste food...(claps*) but aft dat, the feeling is like...urrgh... gg to burst any moment... ;D ;D keke jus wanna say dis is bAd... tts y i nv did tt again.. hee but dis time is different... nt on purpose actually.... The best part, guess wat? 2 or 3hrs later, dad actually bought my fav chilli "harm" & sotong back fr work.. cOz mus give face.. So on tt night (~6hrs aft end of the prev biG meal), finished up all!! >_^

Few days back chat on phone & happened to talk abt TV shows.. Mab was saying i'm getting crazy liao.. "long vacation" time i still insist i wanna watch my fav "liu jin shui yue" & all those TV progs tt i used to watch.. now even better, new series of "Top Fun"... & "Guess Guess Guess" is back.. then got "nan ren ben se", "yuan lai jiu shi ni", last nite's "zhou ri ba dian dang", tonite's mOvie "wo de lao po wei man 18shui"...'zao3 jiu4 shuo1 le4', i cant survive one day w/o TV during "long vacation" la... while post "vacation" is anoth thing.. play w/o TV is fine w/ me ;P

jUe dUi SUperstar!!

aHH... saw on TV they hv open "audition" on sat & sun (7 & 8 May) at IMM!!..... I cannOt gO.. coZ it's sO faR, it goes on for two whole days (1-10pm).. & here i'm on "holiday" nOw! ;-/

hOw i wish all these stuffs happens when i'm free.... I'll go there (alone or wat i don't care) & sit/stand there whole day hear ppl sing... i say "audition" but instead it's a 'tao2 tai4' round... sth like 2nd-round-audition.. hiy, dun mention abt it liaoz..... the more i think the more "dui" i feel...

bUt small, small consolation, it'll be on tv fr 8th June onwards if i din rmb wrongly... k la hope they don't "cut" off too much of the auditon parts.. ;D

P/S: hmm jus wondering if anyone i noe participate in this... ..

tOpLess 5?

cRaving for "topless 5"... but unfortunately it's nt the right time when i'm there at Tamp yesterday.. It was raining heavily... + don't hv much $$ to spare at the moment.. Went shopping w/ mum again... every wk w/o fail..... hah... esp during my this "long vacation".. i think i went out even more often than usu ;D ;D (heh*)

SimpLy lUv 050505's episode of "liu jin shui yue"~

beSt part of the shOw so far...or maybe i shd say another touching scene
--> tian lan & shan ben's conversation by the sea... tRuely amazed by the beautiful stOry by the writer of this serial........

gReat mOtivation...

..from a card I jus received.... looking fwd to the "realization" of the words written inside..... was really overjOyed when i saw it!! thx soO muCh W & P...... LuV u guys!!! I won't forget u aLL~ (promised*)